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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

There are places I remember….

When I was a kid, at the age of 7, whilst sitting up close to the tv on a saturday morning (Mother- You’ll go blind sitting that close, move back”)…I had my first epileptic seizure.
So, we knew then I had photosensitive epilepsy.
So, almost immediately I was put on a drug called “Tegretol” for it.
I have almost no memories of my childhood now, and what I do have is flashes here and there like when I see woodchip wallpaper.
“Oh, I remember! We had that on the walls when I was a kid didnt we?”……..
Tegretol, the drug that made all my memories GO, is the one thing I will NEVER forget.
I was on it from age 7 till 21, and the times in between were rough, I went from a child to an adult in a stream of hazy colours and sounds. Apparently I went from a happy-go-lucky child who never stopped talking, to an out of control depressed nightmare in the space of a couple of weeks on the stuff.
Now of course I know why, now I know how dangerous a drug Tegretol is for anyone, let alone a child.

Today, I saw my nephew learn to crawl, being fascinated by every little thing and commiting it all to memory, you can just see it in his beautiful face, hes thinking “That shiny thing is amazing I must remember that!” ………and it makes me so happy to know that he at least, will have the benefit of the experiences of me, my sister, his mother & father, grandparents, and countless others and will never have to go through anything like that.

Somtimes I see somthing and I just know there was a reason for life being a bit difficult at times.

posted by Barry at 7:33 am  

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